Top 120 Leah Raeder Quotes (2024 Update)
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51. “I kissed my teacher in the shadow of the water tower, beneath the stars.”

— Leah Raeder

52. “Falling for someone is like pulling a loose thread. It happens stitch by stitch. You feel whole most of the time even while the seams pop, the knots loosen, everything that holds you together coming undone. It feels incredible, this opening of yourself to the world. Not like the unraveling it is. Only afterward do you glance down at the tangle of string around your feet that used to be a person who was whole and self-contained and realize that love is not a thing that we create. It’s an undoing.”

— Leah Raeder

53. “I never wanted you until I had you.” She looked at me now, her breath ruffling my hair. “And then I couldn’t imagine my life without you anymore. You’re the dark thing that was in me. I set you free.”

— Leah Raeder

54. “Nobody knows how to be a grown-up. We’re all just pretending for each other. It takes some people their entire lives to figure out what you already know.”

— Leah Raeder

55. “I rarely bought anything. The things I really wanted couldn’t be bought.”

— Leah Raeder

56. “This was an old-time, black-and-white-movie kiss, with the orchestra swelling in my chest, hot tungsten lamps carving out our shadows. My bones turned to air, nothing holding me up but the fierceness of my desire.”

— Leah Raeder

57. “We don’t always get closure. Sometimes we have to make our own.”

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58. “But when I was alone I couldn’t breathe. Everything feels like drowning except you. You’re my oxygen.”

— Leah Raeder

59. “I never wanted to be saved. I wanted someone to follow me down into the darkness.”

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60. “I thought of Blue somewhere out there in the lights twinkling across the harbor. Alone in a hotel room, watching the tiny people below. So far away from it, the warmth of skin and breath. From everything real.”

— Leah Raeder

61. “The world looks down on you, expects nothing from you because of the color of your skin and your mother’s family name. They don’t want you to fail. They want you to not even try. If you try, you will never disappoint me.”

— Leah Raeder

62. “The thing about not breathing is no one tells you how addictive it is. That tingling rush, the buzz in every neuron as they eat through oxygen stores and reach for more and find nothing. It feels like a billion miniscule teeth digging into your brain. A shimmering wave of needle pricks starting in your lungs and skittering up your brain stem like a silvery centipede and spreading over your whole scalp, numbing you like a drug.”

— Leah Raeder

63. “He looked at all of me, my fresh teenage skin, my adult certainty, my old soul. No one had ever looked at me so completely. No one had ever seen me as such a whole, rounded person.”

— Leah Raeder

64. “I stood in the rain, watching his car go. A string tied to it looped around my heart and pulled tighter and tighter until it sheared clean through.”

— Leah Raeder

65. “You can fall in love again with someone you’re already in love with. It’s like waking from a dream within a dream and finding another layer, the colors more vivid, the light more lucid, the fantasy more real. Being in love is an endless loop of waking to reverie.”

— Leah Raeder

66. “In retrospect, you know all the answers. You know the shadowy throes of your heart.”

— Leah Raeder

67. “The city at night gave me the same melancholy twinge I’d felt as a kid watching Mom plug in the Christmas tree. Something beautiful and full of promise, but something you knew you could never touch.”

— Leah Raeder

68. “What brings you back to life also gives you the means to destroy yourself.”

— Leah Raeder

69. “Sometimes I feel like a deperson.”

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70. “My head is bloody, but unbowed.”

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71. “The highway at night looked like a movie flashing past us in fast forward, all the lights receding, out of reach. Autumn spread its golden disease through the woods, Midas trailing his fingers over the treetops. Dying things became extraordinarily beautiful at the very end.”

— Leah Raeder

72. “That’s how you know someone loves you. When they want you to be happy even in the part of your life they’ll never see”.”

— Leah Raeder

73. “We’d never know what was real and what wasn’t about each other. That was the beauty of our shared fiction.”

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74. “In a way it wasn’t so different from art. It bridged the void between minds, let us feel something together, ten tokens per minute. Sometimes I thought, Money isn’t filthy or cold. It’s the only way we can be human with each other anymore.”

— Leah Raeder

75. “Anger is like that. Runs on its own fumes, devours itself voraciously, explosively, until one day there is no fire left. Only pure, cold, unbreakable hardness. Like the diamond core in me.”

— Leah Raeder

76. “But every stroke of the brush, every lyric, every word whispered between human beings resulted from the pain of being alone. In our haunted heads, our imperfect bodies. Islands carved from clay and bone, our skulls like shells full of mist.”

— Leah Raeder

77. “I thought of Blue. “Sometimes it’s easier to talk to a stranger.”

— Leah Raeder

78. “Angels trying to scar themselves, bored of perfection.”

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79. “He can talk about the future all he wants, but it’s not going to wait for him to start.”

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80. “A body has a way of wanting to be touched so badly that the touch itself will hurt, but so will remaining untouched. Nothing helps.”

— Leah Raeder

81. “Just like in fairy tales, the wish wasn’t worth the price.”

— Leah Raeder

82. “Don’t be afraid,” Evan said. “We’re in this together, hand in hand, against the world.”

— Leah Raeder

83. “It wasn’t about flirting with death, like Mom. It was about wanting to live all the way to the seams of life.”

— Leah Raeder

84. “Sometimes you feel things so much, so intensely, it becomes a new kind of numbness, the oblivion of overstimulation.”

— Leah Raeder

85. “Hate is when you love someone but wish you didn’t.”

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86. “This world is run by people who know somebody.”

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87. “I never guessed it was that bad by looking at you,” she said. “You probably see a hundred disabled people every day and don’t realize.” “Never thought of that.” “Most people just want to pass quietly in society. No preconceptions, no prejudices.”

— Leah Raeder

88. “The whole summer was inside of us.”

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89. “Sometimes boys grew up to be women. And girls grew up to be men.”

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90. “I felt like an animal in a cage being stared at by other animals, all of us anonymous, mindless, interchangeable.”

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91. “If two people could make each other smile and laugh and forget all the pain and darkness in the world for a moment, why should we feel ashamed of it?”

— Leah Raeder

92. “Darkness isn’t bad. It’s only darkness.” Those fingers relaxed. “All it means is you don’t see the world as they do. You see what’s really there. They see what they wish was there.”

— Leah Raeder

93. “Every dream is a pipe dream before someone achieves it.”

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94. “This is the suburbs: they tear down nature, then you have to go to Home Depot to buy it back.”

— Leah Raeder

95. “I felt nothing. Do you know how much blood is soaked into every mile of asphalt, how many graves you drive over each morning on the way to work? This world is so thick with ghosts it’s a wonder anyone can breathe.”

— Leah Raeder

96. “If you’re trying to avoid loss, there’s no point in taking another breath, or letting your heart beat one more time. It all ends.”

— Leah Raeder

97. “This is what happens when you lie. Lies grow thin and steely and hard and become bars. Bars become a cage.”

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98. “Most of us can’t even fix ourselves.”

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99. “Listening to her banter with Armin was like standing between two ballet dancers in a gunfight. They circled each other elegantly, feinting, pirouetting, setting up the fatal shot, and Blythe was usually the one to fire it point-blank to Armin’s chest. He accepted his wounds with a gentleman’s grace, and the dance resumed.”

— Leah Raeder

100. “If I die, that’s what they’ll find in me. This face, inked in the surface of every cell.”

— Leah Raeder