“I felt this lightness settling on me, which was new. It’s not closure, because I will live with Matt’s death and the pain of it every day and the grief will stay with me. I just felt that I was carrying it differently. It was a place inside me that was more contained, it wasn’t all of me. It wasn’t like raw, open grief. It was almost like the scab had grown over. Occasionally you pick at it, or it might come off when you’re not expecting it and you start bleeding again.”
