“I am the first and last and nothing inbetween. The mad one. The wild one. The one who sees things that aren’t there. I am to be unloaded on, to be bled on and cried all over. I am the one they experiment with. The one they can let go with because I’ll never tell. I am the one they have saved in their phone as Alfie or Harry or Luke. The keeper of secrets and soother of guilt. But I am never the one.”
