“You think I want to feel this way about you? I hate it, Elias. Watching you flirt with Illustrian girls and sleep with Scholar slaves and find the good in everyone – everyone – but me.′ A sob escapes her – the only time I’ve ever heard her cry. She chokes it back. ‘Loving you is the worst thing that has ever happened to me – worse than the Commandant’s whippings, worse than the Trials. It’s torture, Elias.”
