“I tried to play in this world and live life carefree. I tried, despite Antonio, to be happy. I should’ve realized when I was sixteen and Antonio slid onto the leather seat next to me that happiness was being stolen from me. Life is ugly and hard and I tried to do my best to dance through it but what I should’ve learned was that if the beat is off and you can’t catch a rhythm, you just look like a fool. I was a fool to believe it would all work out. I was a fool to believe in love.”