“I haven’t asked for help because I’m afraid to learn I could’ve ben helping myself all along and I’ve wasted so much time, a lifetime, and I haven’t asked for help because I’m trying my best and I don’t want to know my best isn’t good enough, will never be good enough, and I don’t ask for help because help means coping with the terrible thing and I don’t want to cope, to simply go on, and I childishly think coping hides the fact that there is no purpose and no reason for anything.”
