“Yes, well, it’s two contradictory thoughts, she said, the possibility of ending my life and wanting more life. So what? And here are two more contradictions: I don’t believe in God, but I talk to something like God. I ask this presence to feel for me when I have cut down my own feelings.”

“Yes, well, it’s two contradictory thoughts, she said, the possibility of ending my life and wanting more life. So what? And here are two more contradictions: I don’t believe in God, but I talk to something like God. I ask this presence to feel for me when I have cut down my own feelings.”

— Deborah Levy