Top 35 Amber Smith Quotes (2024 Update)

1. “I don’t know who I am right now. But I know who I’m not. And I like that.”

— Amber Smith

2. “All you have to do is act like you’re normal and okay, and people start treating you that way.”

— Amber Smith

3. “He’s not the hero and he’s not the enemy and he’s not a god. He’s just a boy. And I’m just a girl, a girl who needs to pick up her own pieces and put them back together herself.”

— Amber Smith

4. “But I’m not her anymore. I don’t even want to be her anymore. That girl was so naive and stupid – the kind of girl who could let something like this happen to her.”

— Amber Smith

5. “To you. To every you who has ever known the feeling of needing new ways to be.”

— Amber Smith

6. “Life just goes, just happens, continuing as always. Normal. And I can’t shake the knowledge that life will just keep on happening, regardless if I wake up or not. Obscenely normal.”

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7. “There’s a brief moment of silence for what we’ve lost. And in that moment, it ends. Finally. The past of us officially comes to an end.”

— Amber Smith

8. “Because, in my heart, I know, I’m not who he thinks I am. Not even close. And he’s not who I want him to be, either.”

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9. “No, can’t cry. Because there’s nothing to cry about. Because it was just a dream. A bad dream. A nightmare. Not real. Not real. Not real. That’s what I keep thinking: NotRealNotRealNotReal. Repeat, repeat, repeat. Like a mantra. Like a prayer.”

— Amber Smith

10. “Pulling me in and closing the door behind us. I barely have time to look around before she’s kissing me, her hands finding my waist. I kiss her back, running my fingers through her hair, my favorite part the soft downy fuzz that’s growing in from when she shaved it before school started.”

— Amber Smith

11. “No one will believe you. You know that. No one. Not ever.”

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12. “I’m scared. Really scared he’s about to leave me. And more scared because I don’t want him to.”

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13. “This alternate reality here I’m not quite in my body, not quite in my mind, either – it’s this place where all I do is think about one thing and one thing only.”

— Amber Smith

14. “The summer took forever to get here and now it’s here and it’s just flying. Mostly, I’ve spent the days thinking a lot about what Mara said to me, about how I was hiding. How I could be beautiful if I would just stop.”

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15. “I try to stand without looking like everything is broken. I kick the Tuesdays under the bed so she won’t find them and wonder. I take my robe. Take the tie. And as I look back at my mother, watching her collect the soiled sheets in her arms, the evidence, I know somehow if it’s not now, it has to be never. Because he was right. No one would ever believe me. Of course they wouldn’t. Not ever.”

— Amber Smith

16. “I try to stand without looking like everything is broken.”

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17. “If words were weapons, if they could wound physically, then he just shot a hundred-pound cannonball through the center of my body. The kind of artillery built to take out a battleship, and certainly equipped to sink a stupid, mean little girl.”

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18. “And me, well, before it was like you had the girl and then you had the rumors about the girl, but now there’s only the girl, because the rumors aren’t just rumors anymore, they’re the reality – they are the girl.”

— Amber Smith

19. “He’s on his feet, just needing to show me how much bigger and stronger he is than me. As if I could ever forget. As if the entire world wasn’t organized just to make sure I never forget, even for a second, that any boy, anywhere, even my brother, could take me.”

— Amber Smith

20. “Maybe that’s because everything’s so familiar, you stop paying attention. You don’t notice the one thing that’s different or wrong or off or dangerous. and I think about how maybe that’s what just happened to me.”

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21. “I’m so far gone now, sometimes I feel like maybe it’s almost enough. Because, honestly, there isn’t the slightest trace left of that frizzy-haired, freckle-faced, clarinet-playing, scared-silent little girl. And her big secret is really not such a huge deal anymore. It was all so long ago now, it practically never even happened.”

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22. “I close my eyes again, but it’s all I can see, all I can feel, all I can hear. His skin, his arms, his legs, his hands too strong, his breath on me, muscles stretching, bones cracking, body breaking, me getting weaker, fading. These things. It’s all there is.”

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23. “I don’t know a lot of things. I don’t know why I didn’t hear the door click. Why I didn’t lock the damn door to begin with. Or why it didn’t register that something was wrong, so mercilessy wrong when I felt the mattress shift under his weight. Why I didn’t scream when I opened my eyes and saw him crawling between my sheets. Or why I didn’t to try to fight him when I still stood a chance.”

— Amber Smith

24. “I was just a kid.”

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25. “Ignore the taste in your mouth, the sticky dampness of the sheets, the fire radiating through your thighs, the nauseating pain. This bulletlike thing that ripped through you and got lodged in your gut somehow.”

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26. “And around the time the moon and sun are coexisting in the sky, turning the room inside out with that eerie, yet calming pale glow, I have a terrible thought: I like him. I really, really like him. Like, love-like him. Like, with my metaphorical heart. Like, if I had an x-ray, it would show an arrow lodged right into the center of that bloody, bleeding mass of muscle in my chest. And I know, somehow, that things have changed between us.”

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27. “I am hungry. I know I’m not supposed to need anything. Not supposed to want.”

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28. “Caelin was the glue. He gave us purpose, a reason, a way to be together.”

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29. “Oh really?” she says with a wide grin, pulling me over to her bed.”

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30. “I grew up in New York State, not New York City, which is what everyone thinks when you say “New York”.”

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31. “They were there, just in case – and it scares me that I might kind of understand.”

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32. “I just stand there and let them get away with talking to me like that.”

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33. “His hands, his arms, can hold the pieces in place temporarily, maybe even for a long time, but he can never truly put them back together. That’s not his job. He’s not the hero and he’s not the enemy and he’s not a god. He’s just a boy. And I’m just a girl, a girl who needs to pick up her own pieces and put them back together herself.”

— Amber Smith

34. “I just need out. By any means. I was a fool to think I was ready for this.”

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35. “Emotions are not bad, even the ones like anger or fear that are often labeled as such. These emotions always come up for a reason, and that is to let us know when something doesn’t feel right. Those emotions are what urge us to make a change or do something about the thing that’s not right. It is only when we don’t or can’t do anything that those feelings overtake us and become negative.”

— Amber Smith

36. “Not that I enjoy the parties all that much, but I enjoy losing myself and there’s always someone there. Ready, waiting. Waiting for something to happen. Just like me.”

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37. “I don’t know how long I lay there afterward, telling myself: squeeze your eyelids tight, just try to forget. Try to ignore all the things that didn’t feel right, all the things that felt like they would never feel right again.”

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38. “I shove through the double doors of the library and it’s like I’ve just walked outside. Things are somehow lighter here, and everything moves at a more normal pace, slowing my heart down along with them as I stand in the entryway.”

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39. “I’ve lived so much of my life in a constant state of wishing and waiting; sometimes it was hard to stop these thoughts in my head from running wild.”

— Amber Smith