Top 40 Beatrice Sparks Quotes (2024 Update)

1. “Maybe the new me will be different.”

— Beatrice Sparks

2. “They have accepted me as an individual, as a personality, as an entity. I belong! I am important! I am somebody!”

— Beatrice Sparks

3. “I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.”

— Beatrice Sparks

4. “I’m really cracking. No, I’m beyond cracking. I’m shattered. I’m lost. I’m fragmented.”

— Beatrice Sparks

5. “I’ve got to sleep. Sleep is my only way to escape.”

— Beatrice Sparks

6. “Why is life so difficult? Why can’t we be just ourselves and have everyone accept us the way we are?”

— Beatrice Sparks

7. “I’m afraid to live and afraid to die.”

— Beatrice Sparks

8. “I would like to stay stoned all the time, it scares me it’s so good. I would like to stay stoned every minute of every day for the rest of my life.”

— Beatrice Sparks

9. “I’m not really sure which parts of myself are real and which parts are things I’ve gotten from books.”

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10. “Sometimes fantasies are better than life.”

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11. “It’s a good thing most people bleed on the inside or this would be a gory, blood-smeared earth.”

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12. “They don’t think “I care,” “I hurt,” or “I have feelings.” It just seems like I’m always “wrong,” always “selfish,” always “self-centered” and everything else that’s negative and destructive.”

— Beatrice Sparks

13. “Actually I don’t need the sleep as much as I need the escape. It’s a wonderful way to escape. I think I can’t stand it and then I just take a pill and wait for sweet nothingness to take over. At this stage in my life nothingness is a lot better than somethingness.”

— Beatrice Sparks

14. “How is it possible for me to be so miserable and embarrassed and humiliated and beaten an function still talk and smile and concentrate?”

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15. “She didn’t know whether she was running away from something or running to something, but she admitted that deep in her heart she wanted to go home.”

— Beatrice Sparks

16. “I really am only one infinitely small part of an aching humanity.”

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17. “Alone. The saddest word in the world.”

— Beatrice Sparks

18. “Adolescents have a very rocky insecure time. Grown-ups treat them like children and yet expect them to act like adults. They give them orders like little animals, then expect them to react like mature, and always rational, self-assured persons of legal stature.”

— Beatrice Sparks

19. “I feel like Alice in Wonderland. Maybe Lewis G Carroll was on drugs too.”

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20. “We are all in natural high, It was better than dope or booze or anything.”

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21. “The same old dumb teachers teaching the same old dumb subjects in the same old dumb school. I seem to be kind of losing interest in everything. At first I thought high school would be fun but it’s just dull. Everything’s dull. Maybe it’s because I’m growing up and life is becoming more blase.”

— Beatrice Sparks

22. “I can’t believe that I changed so little. I expected to look old and hollow and gray, but I guess it’s only me on the inside that has shriveled and deteriorated.”

— Beatrice Sparks

23. “I used to think I was the only one who felt things. but I really am only one infinitely small part of an aching humanity. It’s a good thing most people bleed on the inside or this would really be a gory, blood-smeared earth.”

— Beatrice Sparks

24. “I bet the pill is harder to get than drugs – which shows how screwed up this world really is!”

— Beatrice Sparks

25. “Nobody’s talking to me, but nobody’s hassling me either. I guess you can’t have everything.”

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26. “This morning when I left Mom’s parting words were, “Come straight home after school.” Wow! Like I’m going to get stoned at 3:30 – it doesn’t sound so bad at that.”

— Beatrice Sparks

27. “My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.”

— Beatrice Sparks

28. “I’m partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing. Sometimes I think we’re all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don’t like them. Kids are like robots, off an assembly line, and I don’t want to be a robot!”

— Beatrice Sparks

29. “This life is beautiful. It’s so goddamned beautiful I can hardly stand it. And I’m a glorious part of it! Everybody else is just taking up space. Goddamned stupid people. I’d like to shove life down all their throats and then maybe they’d understand what it’s all about.”

— Beatrice Sparks

30. “I feel rotten but I can’t change the way I feel.”

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31. “It all seems so permanent, so old and new at the same time. But I wonder if I will ever feel completely new again. Or will I spend the rest of my life feeling like a walking disease?”

— Beatrice Sparks

32. “How can thoughts hurt so much when they aren’t even physical?”

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33. “I pretend I’ve got lots of confidence and I’m a big jock and like that but deep inside I’m a frightened, insecure, can’t-make-it failure.”

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34. “The complete bottom has fallen out of my life.”

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35. “Sometimes I think we’re all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don’t like them. Kids are like robots, off an assembly line, and I don’t want to be a robot!”

— Beatrice Sparks

36. “If people are going to keep a journal, they should do it when they’re little, where all the good things happen, before life starts kicking you in the ass and in the head and every other places.”

— Beatrice Sparks

37. “I think I’d better take some of Gramps’ sleeping pills, I’m never going to be able to sleep without them. In fact I think I’d better take a supply of them. He’s got plenty, and I’m sure I’ll have a few bad nights at home before I get straightened out. Oh, I hope it’s just a few.”

— Beatrice Sparks

38. “Dear precious Diary, I am baptizing you with my tears. I know we have to leave and that one day I will even have to leave my father and mother’s home and go into a home of my own. But ever I will take you with me.”

— Beatrice Sparks

39. “Lying – remembering beauty in truth.”

— Beatrice Sparks

40. “Depressed? No one in the world but a doper could know the true opposite of depressed.”

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41. “I want so much to be someone important, or even just asked out by a boy every once in a while. Maybe the new me will be different.”

— Beatrice Sparks

42. “Her father is a doctor and away from home most of the time just like Dad, and her mother nags a lot but then I guess all mothers do. If they didn’t I’d hate to see what homes and yards and even the world would look like. Oh, I do hope I won’t have to be a nagging mother, but I guess I’ll have to be, else I don’t see how anything will ever be accomplished.”

— Beatrice Sparks

43. “I feel grown-up. I am no longer in the category with the children, I am one of the adults! And I love it! They have accepted me as an individual, as a personality, as an entity. I belong! I am important! I am somebody!”

— Beatrice Sparks

44. “I love Coos Bay, and I love Acid!”

— Beatrice Sparks

45. “I wouldn’t intentionally hurt anyone in this world. I wouldn’t hurt them physically or emotionally, how then can people so consistently do it to me?”

— Beatrice Sparks

46. “We joked and laughed as though the whole world and its secrets belonged to us alone.”

— Beatrice Sparks