Top 35 Cat Marnell Quotes (2024 Update)

1. “Sure, it could have been worse – but, to quote Keith Richards on the end of his relationship with Anita Pallenberg: “It could have been better, baby.” We.”

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2. “I will never be able to outthink my emotional retardedness.”

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3. “Here’s a life lesson for you kids: it’s much easier to go through something upsetting when you’re on drugs. The more intense the drug, the more you forget your problems! It’s basic science, really.”

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4. “All of this toxicity comforted me. It made me feel less alone. But.”

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5. “No one can make you feel anything you don’t want to feel,” my mother told me once, a complete delusion. He.”

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6. “My favorite was “Teflon mind,” where you imagine your brain being like nonstick cookware: negative thoughts just slide right off. Just.”

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7. “At my door, I took off my heels to climb the five flights of stairs to the apartment I shared with Ol’ “Catfish” Nev. I unlocked the door, crept through the living room full of Nev’s beautiful midcentury modern furniture, and went into my bedroom.”

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8. “It went so dark inside of me. And it was dark outside, too, in those miserable after-Christmas months: cold and wet and icy. I felt like I was trapped inside a snow globe.”

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9. “So. I was very fortunate to get to go to Silver Hill and be in the Transitional Living program. So many sick addicts can’t afford treatment centers, much less luxury rehabs. I was out-of-this-world privileged. I was on-Pluto privileged. That.”

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10. “I’m not giving you any more chances.” But I always gave him more chances. I.”

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11. “I created the same cocoon I always did. So.”

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12. “Addiction versus ambition: it starts small.”

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13. “It was warm for November. There was even a lovely drizzle, like God Himself was spritzing my face with Jurlique Calendula Calming Mist. I.”

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14. “My parents were quiet in the car to the airport, but I couldn’t escape the voices in my head. You failure. You disaster. You disgusting girl. The self-loathing was like a radio station between my ears. Loser. You mess.”

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15. “We’d talk a little and he’d spot me the fifteen pills to get through the week. As soon as I got my next script, I’d pay him back. Then when Marco was inevitably short himself a week or two later, I’d spot him until his next doctor’s appointment. We never screwed each other over. Pillhead honor code.”

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16. “Suddenly, I needed to lie down very badly. I stubbed out my cigarette into a seashell, closed the window, and got in bed. I rubbed some Pure Fiji coconut lotion onto my stomach, closed my smoky eyes, and waited for the curtain to fall. I hated this part. I tried to focus on my breath, just like I’d learned in rehab: inhale, exhale.”

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17. “Worst of all, I couldn’t find my Xanax or my Ambien. I shook out the sheets; I dug through the piles. Finally, I left without them. Have you ever heard the thing about pillheads – that if you really want to see their addictions, just take their pills away? Yeah, this was gonna be bad.”

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18. “You haven’t slept for two days, I kept telling myself.”

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19. “Heath Ledger was on the little glowing screen in front of me in his nurse’s uniform, smoky eyes, and smeared lipstick, smirking as he set off bombs and burned the hospital down.”

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20. “I thought about this. “Young female bodies are built to get pregnant, you know,” I said coolly. I was still gazing up at the ceiling. “And it’s been that way since the dawn of time.” We.”

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21. “I met Jane’s dog, Balloon, and saw the famous Scientology sauna, which was predictably gargantuan and ridiculous. An.”

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22. “It looked like he’d just slurped down a propofol milk shake. “Come.”

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23. “Inhale, exhale. When the heaviness finally came it felt so nice – like the lead X-ray smock they drape over you at the dentist. I forgot all about the Red Flower candle burning on the dresser. Black waves were crashing on my bed. I slipped beneath the turbulent surface of the water. It felt so good that I wanted to sink forever. Mmm. My eyes rolled back, my body relaxed, and I passed out to the Britney Spears Blackout album always looping in my head.”

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24. “There has been speculation over whether I was fired or whether I quit; the truth is, when an addict leaves a job, it really feels like neither.”

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25. “We would’ve been kicked out if we got caught – and you know me. I just live for getting kicked out of things.”

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26. “The less I slept, the more emotionally and psychologically disorganized I became.”

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27. “Then I’d go pee into a cup – or at least try to. Stupid drug tests! I’ve been taking them for nearly a decade now and I still get pee on my hands. I’d really like to invent some sort of contraption for female addicts and take it to Shark Tank.”

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28. “I peed and washed my hands – these are the details you need to know – and.”

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29. “But you know what they say: mo’ prescriptions, mo’ problems.”

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30. “And so I shut down. Winter raged on, but I stopped thinking about my pregnancy. I pretended it all wasn’t happening.”

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31. “I moved through my getting-ready-for-work routine like I was underwater.”

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32. “Jean planted seeds of self-love and positive thinking in my brain. She shut down my negative self-talk again and again and insisted that I believe in my talent and my future.”

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33. “I was always relieved when Monday came. Beep.”

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34. “It’s said that you can’t run away from your problems, but guess what, babes? Untrue. Of course you can. You can do it fabulously.”

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35. “Because instead of learning to push through my helplessness and overcome obstacles, I’d learned that I could chemically alter my brain.”

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36. “When the heaviness finally came it felt so nice – like the lead X-ray smock they drape over you at the dentist.”

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37. “All I really need is my ‘instant glow’ stuff,” she said. “You know. The silver oxide that I drink?” I didn’t, but whatever.”

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