Top 35 Chloe Michelle Howarth Quotes (2026 Update)

1. “Everybody is frustrated when they are fifteen, I know, but knowing this doesn’t ease my frustration. It feels as though I am an island, apart from everybody else. Perhaps we are all islands, apart from each other. Perhaps everyone else feels foreign in their hometown too. Yes, perhaps we are all just islands, as wild and merciless as each other, separated by our countless defects.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

2. “My heart lurches, as if it wants to leave my awful body and go make a home in her.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

3. “Soon I expect I will taste of nothing but clotted blood and ash. Will you still put your mouth to me so feverishly then, when I have fully decayed?”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

4. “My own feelings are a hedge of briars that I can’t bring myself to touch. There are so many unhappy people, I just don’t want to find out that I am one of them. They walk among us, they touch you, and you become them. Introspection is like cyanide. Life is fine this way, ignorance is easy, I do what is easy. Doesn’t that make the most sense?”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

5. “The second day in August – is that not the loveliest day of the year?”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

6. “She is fresh air, and warmth, and mornings in July. What is there to fix? There is evil in my yearning, know, I just can’t see where yet.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

7. “I loathe emails. The terrible, pixelated text missing the loops of her handwriting. The screen missing her perfume. I cannot touch paper that she has touched. I cannot get any real trace of her.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

8. “Imagine a place where I could scream and not be heard, and fail and not be seen. A place where my insignificance would not hurt, because everybody would be insignificant.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

9. “A bright smile comes to Martin, and I copy it. He nods. It means the world to him. It is nothing but a cheek ache to me.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

10. “To be with her is a sin, to be without her is a tragedy.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

11. “This Summer has been just a little too warm, the sun has been a little too bright. My thoughts have been a little bit too uncontrollable. And my emotions a little too humid. They only grow more humid. It all just gets stickier. Soon I think I will be unable to go even one day without lying on the grass with her.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

12. “I want you to know that I appreciate the helpless position I have put you in, and although I keep it quiet, I am so devoted to you. Thank you for always being patient. I didn’t realise that I was ever unhappy until you made me this happy. I promise that I am proud of you. One day everybody will know how proud of you I am. Until then, Susannah, I hope that you will continue to grace me with your perfection.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

13. “Susannah, since the day I met you, I have wanted to let you know that you are a spill of gleaming gold on my otherwise dull and pointless world.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

14. “But I’m the inconvenient thing. I am my own biggest obstacle. I always have been.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

15. “I would drape my own soul over her body to protect her from eyes like mine.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

16. “I’ll marry you if you get past all the shame of being with me.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

17. “This Summer is breaking my heart into pieces, to reveal a new and better heart that only beats for her.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

18. “Those rude, unwashed boys, why would I want to imagine such intimate pieces of them?”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

19. “Right now it seems as though I only have two options: either I can be who Mother expects me to be, or I can be whoever I want to be.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

20. “I can’t stand being on the outside of what everyone else is feeling.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

21. “Some parts of her I keep in my memory, others in my heart. This, I keep in my blood. And all night in bed, my blood slowly drags through my veins, bringing that moment to every piece of my body. It is beyond words. This isn’t a feeling, it is a state of being.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

22. “I understood that there were limits to love, and I felt sure that one day people would run out of love for me.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

23. “Susannah, Save this letter: it marks the moment that my life finally started. I have never felt closer to Heaven than I felt today on the road with you. I can only hope that it was real, and that you will not change your mind. Now I am away from you, I have never felt further from home, further from myself. Susannah, since the day I met you, I have wanted to let you know that you are a spill of gleaming gold on my otherwise dull and pointless world. Yours always, Lucy.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

24. “I am mortified, I have been made mortal.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

25. “Susannah, you are Heaven made flesh, you have been the greatest fire of my life. It’s not good enough, I know, but for every time I made you feel inadequate, I have died a hundred deaths. I’ll love you until the earth finishes.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

26. “Where her body is pressed into mine, our skin glows. These parts of me are beautiful.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

27. “Now is the time between birth and slaughter.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

28. “I am afraid that we might all be our mothers’ daughters.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

29. “I knew she would be beautiful today, of course I knew, but this is unbelievable. Never in all my years of Christianity has there been talk of an angel like this. My God, she is not even walking, she floats around the room.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

30. “Here, every breath is heard, every evil thought is known. It might be beautiful to look at, but it is abysmal to exist in; a sweet, sad dream. And while I could think of a million places that I would rather be, I fear that I will never have the nerve to leave. I fear that Crossmore is too deep in me, and I would not know how to exist elsewhere.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

31. “Without all the mysticism of being my mother, she is just a woman, exactly like me, only with less time ahead of her.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

32. “There is a constant humming within me, beyond my heartbeat, a feeling of permanent dissatisfaction. It is the void which you used to fill.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

33. “Too late I realise that she has been the Summer of my life. What a slow and painful death this shall be.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

34. “All I’m doing is trying to love people. All I need is the right kind of love back.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

35. “As much as I have given up on those things, I haven’t let them go, because for every way they are deplorable there is a way they are beautiful. I have an unshakeable faith in them all. I don’t know if there is anything to be done about it.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

36. “I want to be with her. She is the first and last thing that I want, but she is not the only thing. And there are so many more things that she wants, and so many more things that she deserves, but I am the only thing that she has left.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth

37. “In the dresser there are two sets of rosary beads, a Brigid’s cross, and an iron pendant on a chain. And then there is her, more worthy of worship, with a knee on either side of my hips.”

— Chloe Michelle Howarth