Top 50 Courtney C. Stevens Quotes (2024 Update)

1. “If nothing changes, nothing changes. If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’re going to keep getting what you’re getting. You want change, make some.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

2. “It’s been a year. It’s been a really hard year without you. Losing you felt like jumping off the bridge and forgetting which way was up. I don’t think I’ll ever be over it, but I’m starting to find my way through it. Mom said when a person dies, you don’t get over it by forgetting; you get through it by remembering. I’ve been remembering everything lately.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

3. “I feel myself shutting down, closing off, like I should tell people, “No, we don’t use this heart anymore. It’s too fragile.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

4. “If you weren’t there, and I weren’t here... If I weren’t me... but you were still you, I would be interested in letting you like-like me.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

5. “So Bodee is a friend, I say firmly, a best friend. My honesty with the girl surprises me. But Bodee is right where I love him, in the room down the hall up the stairs from mine. Dinner instead of a dinner date. A hand to hold instead of lips to kiss. He’s my fort, my sanctuary. And I won’t do anything to jeopardize this.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

6. “Black funeral dress. Black heels. Black headband in my hair. Death has a style all it’s own. I’m glad I don’t have to wear it very often.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

7. “Sometimes you have to accept that you might not be able to see the truth from here.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

8. “There’s an art to crying without a sound, and I’m a master. But.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

9. “Sometimes a small thing was bigger than a big thing.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

10. “You, my dear, have been through an ordeal, so you cry all you want. Crying heals soul wounds that medicine can’t touch.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

11. “I don’t measure her love in hours spent with me. I measure it in hours spent understanding me.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

12. “I don’t want this thing in my chest to beat me to death, but I also don’t want to protect it so much that I never use it again.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

13. “You don’t owe your truths to everyone.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

14. “Because Bodee pulls back when other guys his age rush forward. Because his two fingers on my hips while we’re dancing and swaying to slow songs don’t threaten me.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

15. “This morning the secret has claws. And it’s climbing the walls of my stomach, twisting my gut, quivering and rolling and burning. Red-hot acid in the back of my throat. Ready to explode.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

16. “Sharing a heart with someone isn’t a crowded thing when they understand you that well.”

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17. “No one should ride tragedy like a pro surfer while I drown.”

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18. “Then, somehow, you have to accept that you’re still here, and that maybe, just maybe, there’s a reason. Find the reason.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

19. “Imagination was a gift I kept in my front pocket.”

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20. “Funny how people value eyes, when really, their colors are super limited. I doubt anyone would enjoy a new box of crayons if they came only in eye-color shades.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

21. “Whenever I’m with Bodee, it feels as if I’m made of glass. Mascara, blush, and fake smiles never fool him. Maybe it comes from years seeing his mother hide her fears from the world. But I’m not ready to share.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

22. “Sometimes the journey to let someone love you is the journey to loving yourself.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

23. “It started with the crash. I held on to all these emotions and truths that I should have expressed, but I didn’t know how to say what I needed to say. I thought that would ruin us. Well, silence ruined us too.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

24. “Happiness was getting stuck with someone and never feeling stuck.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

25. “People weren’t perfect, ever, but sometimes moments were.”

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26. “Don’t you ever touch her again,” Bodee says. There must be muscles in his arms where before I thought there was only T-shirt. But it’s not those muscles that pin Hayden against the ground: it’s the white-hot fury that’s as visible as Hayden’s grimace.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

27. “Posse ad ease – from possibility to actuality.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

28. “Good guys and terrible guys seem to be stupid at the same ratio.” “Bodee’s not.” “Bodee doesn’t count. He was raised by wolves on Neptune or something,” I argue. “Yeah. Back to Collie.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

29. “Love in pencil is safer than love in life.”

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30. “There is more than one way to add color to the world. More than one way to crown a queen.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

31. “If there was such a thing greater than happiness, I felt that, too. Peace, perhaps.”

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32. “No one talked about the questions, because talking ruined plausible deniability. Talking burst the bubble of innocence. Talking ended the happily ever after. These were the truths they believed. And they were lies. They should have talked while there was still something to say.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

33. “We wrecked more than the car.”

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34. “Bodee keeps us upright; not that his traction is better than mine, but because it’s what he does.”

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35. “One corner of Bodee’s mouth moves. There’s neither a smile nor a frown on his face, but I understand. Without words, he’s telling me not to worry. He’ll make certain I get home safely tonight.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

36. “All in all. You have been. Redeemer. Pain Steeler. My best friend. Please hold my hand.”

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37. “Right now we’re both yard sales of emotions. A penny for pain. A dime for bitterness. A quarter for grief. A dollar for silence.”

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38. “Bravery comes one day at a time.”

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39. “You forgive yourself.”

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40. “What everyone is scared of – that if I’m me, I’m not enough.”

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41. “Thinking of yourself is boyish is one thing, but your friends assigned you a gender – without asking – and that flayed you. If I had to speculate, you’re actually upset because you believe they should know you well enough to avoid such an error. Which isn’t totally fair to you or them. Gender, sexuality, fluidity: Those areas require stumbling around in the dark, feeling, and bumping into things. But even if you can admit to that, you still feel out of control. And probably lonely.”

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42. “I’ve got an edge like the Grand Canyon, and nothing takes it off.”

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43. “Nature, at its strongest, shaved off mountaintops or threw houses into the air, but it couldn’t was away pain. Everything had limitations.”

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44. “In a way I’m better. Telling Bodee has released some of the pressure. In but another way, I’m worse, because I can’t tell him I’m better. We define “better” differently.”

— Courtney C. Stevens

45. “Everyone hurts us. If we stopped loving them because of pain, we’d never love anyone.”

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46. “Most people want puddles to splash around in; Thom wants souls where scuba diving is encouraged.”

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47. “Maybe forgiveness was giving the past less power to hurt me. Or even building new memories that were stronger than the painful ones.”

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48. “I love this about her. That she is like me. Emotional, and embarrassed about being emotional. I.”

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49. “He always had bread crumbs in his voice, and I followed them like a fairy tale.”

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50. “Sometimes a hand is an anchor. His held me to the world.”

— Courtney C. Stevens