Top 40 Mason Deaver Quotes (2024 Update)

1. “It hurt because I missed him so much. I missed my brother more than anything I’d ever missed before. And I knew that I was never going to stop missing him. But I had to learn to live alongside the pain, alongside this missing part of my life that I’d never get back.”

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2. “But knowing what you have to do and actually doing what you need to are two different things, two separate worlds.”

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3. “I’m just so tired,” I told her. “I’m tired of being this way and I’m tired of my brain being broken and I’m tired, Mommy. I’m tired.”

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4. “I don’t deserve anything but loneliness because all I do is hurt people. It’s what I’m good at. I learned from the best.”

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5. “The world’s too loud sometimes.”

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6. “I didn’t want to die. Not really. What I wanted was to disappear. To blink out of existence, to be forgotten by everyone who ever knew me. I didn’t want to be here anymore, to have to think, to have to feel.”

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7. “I wish you all the best, Benjamin De Backer.” They aren’t the same words, but I know exactly what he means. “I love you too.”

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8. “Be sad, hell, sit in bed all weekend and just watch Netflix. I’ve had those times too. But don’t stop living your life for them.”

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9. “Boys aren’t supposed to wear dresses. Even if I’m not a boy, even if clothing shouldn’t be gendered. Whenever anyone looks at me, that’s all they’ll see.”

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10. “That’s not what’s going to happen. Why would you think I’d want to lose you like that?”

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11. “Every “boy” or “him” has been like a stab in the gut.”

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12. “Whatever happens” – his grip tightens a little – “I wish you all the best, Benjamin De Backer.” He says it with a smile. “You deserve it.”

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13. “Labels can help people find common ground, can help them connect, with themselves and other people”.”

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14. “I follow her, the air between us feeling more poisonous with every step.”

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15. “You always point out the problems with the paintings or the drawings. But what about the things you got right?”

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16. “There are no fireworks. Time doesn’t stop. And I don’t mind; I don’t think he does either. Because this has been in the making for so long.”

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17. “Love at first anxiety attack.”

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18. “He was a ghost following me everywhere I went, even when I didn’t want him there.”

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19. “Of course.” Dr. Taylor jots something down. “Perhaps it is unreasonable for a college student to take on the responsibility of adopting their younger sibling, but that doesn’t invalidate the hurt caused.”

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20. “Like who you’re attracted to and who you are as a person are two totally different things. It’s hard to explain not being confident in your own body. It just feels wrong, but only you seem to really know how and why it feels that way.”

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21. “I wanted my own answer. I wanted something for me. Maybe that was the point. To live just for me?”

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22. “I’m just wondering what the point is.” “Well, that’s the real question, isn’t it?”

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23. “He was stuck back there, as I moved forward. And yet it still felt like we were both stuck in the same place.”

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24. “I sit there in the silence of the room, not sure what I’m supposed to do now. Like, what do you do when your parents kick you out of ypur house? When your entire life is upheaved, all because you wanted to come out, to be respected and seen, to be called the right pronouns?”

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25. “The more I stare at my body, the more I hate it. It’s the same feelings I had before I realized I’m nonbinary. Things just aren’t where they’re supposed to be, and I feel like I’m larger and smaller than myself at the same time. Like nothing adds up.”

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26. “But I don’t think he realizes how difficult it can be to forget all the mistakes when I know they’re my fault. When I know I should’ve caught them.”

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27. “It’s not that I don’t appreciate what Hannah is doing for me, but the second we stepped in, she took charge, heading right over to the “men’s” section without giving it a second thought. I.”

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28. “It’s like Thomas, Mrs. Williams, and Mrs. Kurtz got together to see what would lead to the quickest emotional breakdown from me. Joke’s on them, because I already know it won’t take much.”

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29. “I was someone to Ethan until Marcus came around, and then I was nobody.”

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30. “Underneath this smooth and handsome exterior lies the soul of an isolated poet”.”

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31. “The age difference meant we weren’t really a part of each other’s lives. I mean, what teenager wants to hang around their kid sibling? She had her own life, her own friends, her own hobbies. She spent weekends out of the house, and.”

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32. “Don’t ignore the problems,” he says. “Learn from them. But also, don’t knock what you get right. Every success deserves a celebration.”

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33. “And to my father: You never got the chance to see these words, to know about this book in all its detail. Truthfully, I don’t know if you would’ve liked it, and I don’t know if you would’ve liked me, but we’ll never really know, will we? You only told me that you wanted me to be the next J. K. Rowling. And while I’m not sure I’d want that, I hope this is close enough.”

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34. “I don’t really know what I want, but it isn’t this body. It’s almost like it knows, with the way it taunts me.”

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35. “But in my experience, I’ve learned that the things worth doing are what scare us the most.”

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36. “It was hard to feel like we were anything other than people sharing a tragedy.”

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37. “I can’t wear the clothes I want to wear, or that I think look good, but shouldn’t I at least be able to paint my goddamned fingernails?”

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38. “Thanks for being a friend, Betty White.”

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39. “It’s hard to be proud of something you messed up, even if everything around it is perfect.”

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40. “Such a contrast to the other non-binary people I’ve seen online. Their smooth, hairless, acne-less faces, their trimmed hair that always seems perfect. These things I could never be. Because no matter how hard I will it my body isn’t how I want to see myself.”

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41. “This was Ethan’s world, the world that he’d left behind.”

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