Top 500 Ottessa Moshfegh Quotes (2024 Update)
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101. “In the distance, people were living lives, having fun, learning, making money, fighting and walking around and falling in and out of love. People were being born, growing up, dropping dead. Trevor was probably spending his Christmas vacation with some woman in Hawaii or Bali or Tulum. He was probably fingering her at that very moment, telling her he loved her. He might actually be happy. I shut the window and lowered all the blinds.”

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102. “He never knew what to say around her. Everything he wanted to say was ‘You are beautiful’ and ‘I’m in love with you.’ There was, in his mind, nothing else for him to say.”

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103. “Every three days, I’d wake up, look at calendar, eat, drink, bathe, et cetera. I would only spend one hour awake each time. I did the math: for the next four months, 120 days total. I would spend only fourth hours in a conscious state.”

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104. “Once I started sleeping full time, I didn’t look out my windows very often. A glimpse was all I ever wanted. The sun rose in the east and set in the west. That hadn’t changed, and it never would.”

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105. “The second hand on the clock shook and bolted forward like someone at first terrified with anxiety, then, bolstered by desperation, jumping off a cliff only to get stuck in midair.”

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106. “Mirth,” Dr. Tuttle said. “I like it better than joy. Happiness isn’t a word I like to use in here. It’s very arresting, happiness.”

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107. “I didn’t like dogs. Not because they scared me – they didn’t – but because their deaths were so much harder to take than people’s.”

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108. “I even made myself a cup of chamomile tea, the nauseating sweet smell wafting up from my chipped coffee cup like a hot diaper. This was supposed to be relaxing?”

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109. “And anyway, there is no comfort here on Earth. There is pretending, there are words, but there is no peace. Nothing is good here. Nothing. Every place you go on Earth, there is more nonsense.”

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110. “On a good day, every small thing is enchanting. Everything is a miracle. There is no emptiness. There is no need for forgiveness or escape or medicine. I hear only the wind in the trees, and my devils hatching their sacral plans, fusing all the shattered pieces together into a blanket of ice. I have found that it’s under that ice that I can feel I am just another normal person. In the dark and cold, I am at ’peace.”

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111. “I needed a way out of this – the bathroom, the pills, the sleeplessness, the failed, stupid life.”

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112. “I just wanted to sleep all the time. I had a plan.”

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113. “Every few weeks, she had a whole new paradigm for living, and I had to hear about it.”

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114. “Violence was just another function of the body, no less unusual than sweating or vomiting. It sat on the same shelf as sexual intercourse. The two got mixed up quite often, it seemed. For.”

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115. “Trevor got out of the car to hose me off in the garden, made me strip and put on his blazer before getting back into the car, then asked for a blow job in the parking lot of the Poughkeepsie Galleria before he went in to buy me a new outfit. I acquiesced. For him, this was erotic gold.”

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116. “I can imagine myself saying at the time that life itself was like a book borrowed from the library – something that did not belong to me and was due to expire. How silly.”

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117. “But these painters of fruit thought only of their own mortality, as though the beauty of their work would somehow soothe their fear of death. There they all were, hanging feckless and candid and meaningless, paintings of things, objects, the paintings themselves just things, objects, withering toward their own inevitable demise.”

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118. “I tell him I wish I could stay with him, but not here, not on Earth. Earth is the wrong place for me, always was and will be until the day I die.”

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119. “There’s nothing I detest more than men with happy childhoods.”

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120. “That is what I imagined life to be – one long sentence of waiting out the clock.”

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121. “I trusted that everything was going to work out fine as long as I could sleep all day.”

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122. “You can always tell something when a woman is overdressed – either she’s an outsider, or she’s insane.”

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123. “I know I don’t have any real wisdom. I don’t have any wonderful ideas. I am lucky to have found a few nice people here and there.”

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124. “I kept my head down, away from the biting air and the joy of the holiday. I didn’t want to be reminded of Christmases past. No associations, no heartstrings snagged on a tree in a window, no memories.”

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125. “I didn’t believe in heaven, but I did believe in hell.”

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126. “I always called back to cancel, which I hated doing because I hated talking to people.”

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127. “People would be so much more at ease if they acted on impulse rather than reason. That’s why drugs are so effective in curing mental illness – because they impair our judgment. Don’t try to think too much.”

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128. “The first time I met Dr. Tuttle, she wore a foam neck brace because of a “taxi accident” and was holding an obese tabby, whom she introduced as “my eldest.”

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129. “Love can be like that. It can vanish in an instant. It’s happened since, too. A lover has left the warm rapture of my bed to get a glass of water and returned only to find me cold, uninterested, empty, a stranger. Love can reappear, too, but never again unscathed. The second round is inevitably accompanied by doubt, intention, self-disgust. But that is neither here nor there.”

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130. “I rarely interacted much with anyone back then who wasn’t retarded. When I did, it struck me how pompous and impatient they were, always measuring their words, twisting things around. Everybody was so obsessed with being understood. It made me sick.”

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131. “Family time can put a strain on the mentally deranged.” She clucked her tongue as though out of pity.”

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132. “He and I agreed that people looked stupid when they were “having a good time.”

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133. “My favorite days were the ones that barely registered. I’d catch myself not breathing, slumped on the sofa, staring at an eddy of dust tumbling across the hardwood floor in the draft, and I’d remember that I was alive for a second, then fade back out.”

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134. “There was a fine mathematics for how to mete out sedation. The goal for most days was to get to a point where I could drift off easily, and come to without being startled. My thoughts were banal. My pulse was casual. Only the coffee made my heart work a bit harder. Caffeine was my exercise.”

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135. “Every time I saw Lacey, she’d gained five more pounds. She was turning into the kind of obese girl who does her hair like a forties pinup and wears bright red lipstick, a blue polka-dot dress with a white doily collar, colorful tattoos across her huge, smushed cleavage, as if these considerations would distract us from how fat and miserable she’d become.”

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136. “Beauty is the Devil’s shade,’ Jude said.”

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137. “I’ve lived with many alcoholic men over the years, and each has taught me that it is useless to worry, fruitless to ask why, suicide to try to help them. They are who they are for better and worse.”

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138. “I had the vague notion that bearing arms was in poor taste. Unless you were terribly wealthy, hunting was for the brutish lower class, uncivilized country folk, primitive types, people who were dumb and callous and ugly. Violence was just another function of the body, no less unusual than sweating or vomiting. It sat on the same shelf as sexual intercourse. The two got mixed up quite often, it seemed.”

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139. “I had hard feelings around the holidays, the one time of year I couldn’t help but fall prey to the canned self-pity Christmas prescribes.”

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140. “I hated my boyfriend but I liked the neighborhood.”

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141. “I’m at the end of my rope.”

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142. “If I had been a man, I may have turned to a life of crime. But I looked like an off-duty model. It was too easy to let things come easy and go nowhere.”

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143. “I wasn’t an insomniac, but I was miserable.”

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144. “I was nervous. It had been a long time since I’d gone any place I wanted to be.”

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145. “And yet I was aware of the nothingness. I was awake in the sleep, somehow. I felt good. Almost happy.”

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146. “People died all the time. Why couldn’t I?”

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147. “He thought that the drugs we bought in the bus-depot restroom were intended to expand his mind, as though some door could be unlocked up there and he would greet his own genius – some glowing alien in glasses and sneakers, spinning planet Earth on its finger. Clark was an idiot.”

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148. “I think by then I’d been single longer than is healthy for a young man.”

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149. “The world was out there still, but I hadn’t looked at it in months. It was too much to consider in all, stretching out, a circular planet covered in creatures and things growing, all of it spinning slowly on an axis created by what – some freak accident? It seemed implausible.”

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150. “Carnage or contribution. That’s what priests always say.”

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