“But as long as I figure out what’s going to happen before it actually happens – or hell, even while it’s happening – all the struggling and flailing might propel me away from it in time. Procrastination has become its own solution – a tool I can use to push myself so close to disaster that I become terrified and flee toward success. A more troubling matter is the day-to-day activities that don’t have massive consequences when I neglect to do them.”