Top 70 Val Emmich Quotes (2024 Update)

1. “All I want to do is climb into bed and hide under the covers.”

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2. “Dear Evan Hansen, Today is going to be a good day, and here’s why. Because it isn’t supposed to rain like yesterday and that’s good because I didn’t have to pack my umbrella and my backpack feels a little lighter. Sincerely, Me.”

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3. “I just want to be alone, the way I’ve always been. I don’t want to be bothered or noticed or questioned. But that’s just wishful thinking.”

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4. “That’s just what I do. I ruin things. Always. Whether I want it or not. The thing I’m ruining can be the best thing in my life. And I’ll know it, too. And I’ll still be powerless to stop it. Or too scared.”

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5. “I wish that everything was different. I wish that I was a part of something. I wish that anything I said mattered, to anyone. I mean, let’s face it: would anybody even notice if I disappeared tomorrow?”

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6. “No one should ever feel they have to suffer in silence. We need to keep talking about mental health and continue to reach out to those who might be suffering.”

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7. “Life is like an interview.”

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8. “I do stupid things when I’m nervous, which means I’m constantly doing stupid things.”

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9. “I’m left with a loneliness so overpowering it threatens to seep from my eyes. I have no one. Unfortunately, that’s not fantasy. That’s all-natural, 100 percent organic, unprocessed, reality.”

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10. “Also, i realized that avoiding people didn’t actually ease any of my anxieties. Out there in the woods, i still had to live with myself.”

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11. “Meh is basically a shoulder shrug, and that pretty much sums up the reaction I get from society at large.”

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12. “Even for stars. At some point they fizzle out or explode. Cease to be. But if you’re looking up at the sky, you don’t see it that way. You think all those stars are still there. Some aren’t. Some are already gone. Long gone. I guess, now, so am I.”

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13. “The me I am is not the me I was.”

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14. “It’s too painful to remember”; “It’s even more painful to forget”;.”

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15. “To the ground I fall. I can never stay aloft too long. Not when there’s an ugly and heavy truth always dragging me back down.”

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16. “I’m much better at interpreting books and stories than I am at understanding the decisions made by living, breathing people.”

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17. “How can she know me when I don’t even know me? What I say, what I think, I can’t decide which parts are real and which are made-up. I try, over and over, to reach myself. How is that even possible when I’m already here, walking in my own skin?”

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18. “That’s what happens when people leave, I think. When they’re gone, you don’t have to be reminded of all the bad things. They can just stay the way you want them forever. Perfect.”

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19. “The choices always seem to be fight or flight, but I typically end up somewhere in between, doing exactly neither. I stay and I take the beating.”

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20. “Now i’m home again and none of my usuals methods of escape are doing the trick. I tend to watch a lot of movies. Ideally, documentaries about loners, outcats, pioneers. Give me a cult leader, obscure historical figures, dead musicians. I want to see a misunderstood person who someone is finally taking the time to understand.”

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21. “I also know that when you’re not in the best headspace, the trivial can turn into the insurmountable.”

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22. “Really, though, what do i know about what another person is capable of? I still don’t have a clue what i’m capable of. I keep surprising even myself.”

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23. “I walked to my window. It’s pirch-dark outside. For the most part, I’ve always preffered night to day. At night, it’s okay to be hunkered down in your house. During the day, people expect you to be out and about. You can start to feel pretty guilty about wasting so much time indoors.”

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24. “My stomach was a hot puddle of nerves, had been for a week straight. I couldn’t take it anymore. But to get rid of it once and for all, i had to do the brave thing. That’s where my plan failed. I couldn’t do it. I’m not brave. I’m extremely not brave.”

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25. “I think grief can make you do weird things. Things you wouldn’t do normally.”

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26. “I hate going to sleep because adults do so many things when you’re not around, like pack their bags and leave.”

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27. “If the pain is in you, it’s in you. It follows you everywhere. Can’t outrun it. Can’t erase it. Can’t push it away; it only comes back. The way I’ve been thinking, after all that’s happened, maybe there’s only one way to survive it. You have to let it in. Let it hurt you.”

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28. “Why would he do this? I mean, i understand how low a person can get. I also know that when you’re not in the best headspace, the trivial can turn into the insurmountable and all of sudden you’re heading down a dark path and you can’t find your way back.”

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29. “Maybe the trick, when I’m finally ready, is to quit treating these reminders like treacherous chasms to leap over. And to one day, maybe, see them as good reasons to stop and celebrate.”

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30. “It became this thing that followed me arround. The logline to my movie, telling people what to expect of me. telling me what to expect of myself. I was the villain. that was my role.”

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31. “Thinking about it now, i have to say, nothing terrible comes to mind. No blowup fights or traumatic episodes. that’s usually what happens when i dig too deep into memories. The worst stuff pops up first.”

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32. “Before all this, i was alone, but i still had a few squeezes left in my tube of hope. Connor Murphy wasn’t a part of my daily life. He, like me, existed in the background. Our paths didn’t cross, and if they did, neither of us noticed.”

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33. “Wich begs the question: Why am i here? To wich there is only one answer: I don’t know. The choices always seem to be fight or flight, but i typically end up somewhere in between, doing exactly neither. I stay and take the beating.”

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34. “Seventeen years later and she’s still trying to tweak me just a little bit more to her liking.”

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35. “The me I am is not the me I was. Just like the me I am is not the me I will be. Those versions of myself I can’t change or predict. I’m not even sure I have much influence over the present me. But it’s all I’ve got. I probably shouldn’t fight it.”

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36. “Maybe, someday, some other kid is going to be standing here, staring out at the trees, feeling alone, wondering if maybe the world might look different from all the way up there. Better. Maybe he’ll start climbing, one branch at a time, and he’ll keep going, even when it seems like he can’t find another foothold. Even when it feels hopeless. Like everything is telling him to let go. Maybe this time he won’t let go. This time he’ll hold on. He’ll keep going.”

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37. “I felt swallowed by the swarm. Surrounded by all these people and somehow lonelier than ever. None of them saw me or knew me. The only one who ever did I’d pushed away.”

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38. “I was certain of one thing: how I felt when I was around him and when I wasn’t. The first was exhilarating. The other unbearable. Being with him was like being hooked on a drug. When we stopped seeing each other, I went into withdrawal. It was a long, dark summer.”

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39. “The feeling of almost drowning is even worse than actually drowning. Actually drowning is peace. Almost drowning is pure pain.”

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40. “Fantasies always sound good, but they’re no help when reality comes and shoves you to the ground. When it trips up your tongue and traps the right words in your head. When it leaves you to eat lunch by yourself.”

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41. “He doesn’t think i’m worth the effort. I couldn’t agree more. Anyway, i’m grateful. I’m not sure i could survive another fall today.”

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42. “I wish there was a way to know when you were seeing someone for the last time so you could pay extra-close attention to that person when it was happening.”

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43. “Dear Evan Hansen, Sorry I’ve been out of touch. Things have been crazy.”

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44. “Will I ever be more than I’ve always been?”

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45. “Positive outlook yields positive experience.”

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46. “I hold my breath, try to freeze time, thinking if I can just keep the air inside my lungs forever, maybe I’ll never have to face what comes next. But I breathe, because I’m weak and I must, and when I open my eyes, and everyone is looking at me, and I know it’s only begun: the end of everything. But there’s no way out now.”

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47. “Um, not anymore. They belong to everyone now. I mean, that’s the whole point. And the more private they are, the better.”

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48. “As torturous as it feels to be here in Connor’s private space, it’s probably the closest I’ve ever been to the truth of who he was. Besides the obvious differences between his bedroom and mine – my bed is half the size, my floors are carpeted, and my walls are painted light green – there are some striking similarities.”

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49. “Is it possible that I actually appear to them as hollow and immaterial as I feel inside?”

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50. “I had to die for them to notice I was ever alive.”

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