“Sometimes, and I don’t know why, everything I want to say to you presses upon me with great intensity, like a crowd of people all trying to squeeze through a narrow door at once. And I have said nothing to you, less than nothing, for everything I have written recently has been false – not fundamentally, of course, because fundamentally everything is true – but with so much confusion and falseness on the surface that no one could be expected to see through it.”
